Actually idky but sECONDARY SCHOOL changed me A LOT. Firstly, I'm totally sad bcs i feel totally bad. i feel like guys in my school make me realized how ugly i am. i know in primary school, i don't mind this thingy ((but sometimes i care lol)) i care not bcs i want to be loved, i just want to be treated fair. guys in my school definitely close only to famous/glamour girls and when it comes to me they asked "do i know u?" what i did is just smile. smile as u can. yeah, i admit in secondary school, there will be a lot of pretty girls where all u can do is sigh and insecure. sometimes i feel like want to stabbing them from behind bcs of being pretty all the time. but then, they're insecure towards another girl like wth youre pretty like hell no need to insecure you should be thankful. hahahaha i'm a badass -yea i know.

And i somehow menyampah with girls in my school too. like what i said, if boys close to famous girls so same goes to girls. when it comes to boys they will be like "oh so u want to make some noise? ok i dont mind" but when i'm talking to girls like;

me: /raise my hand/

them: wTH YOURE SO ANNOYING GURL, STOP RAISE AND GIVE THE BOYS A CHANCE.

you will feel me when u hv a twitter account -junior girls will seek for senior boys attention and close to them but i somehow dont know when they had argue with senior girls i mean like "y cant u be nice as u be nice to the senior boys?!?!?!?!!?!" so i feel like why so wally hahaha. 

you know when the first time i get to know with them, they are so nice like angle from above. but then, they turn to wild gurls lol hahhahaha i know this is kinda rude but i totally cant take it. i found it unfair, AT ALL. i feel like "youre beautiful girl but its just sad the fact that youre becoming a judgemental. its like waste of your beauty." but when i think wisely, thats why the word "nobody's perfect" invented and i definitely agree!

i hate them for that bcs you know i wouldnt hate them for no reason so ofc i have my own reason. the reason was few months ago;;;;

i went to my school club meeting and i have no friends to accompany me so i close to my classmate. my classmate has a friend. i joined them until the school club ended. when it ended, my classmate asked me to join her went to the canteen and i was like "ok, sure,  no problem" i was totally bored bcs ive been quite all the time since the school club meeting started so i began to talk. talk and talk and talk and talk and my classmate's friend began to scolded me "eh y are u so noise?" and i was like ok i will never talk to u anymore and i will never breathe in front of you ok are u satisfied? but i dont have guts to tell that i have my right to talk so i quite. but i'm so burn like a toaster so i ended up by called my mum to pick me early. so yeah. i feel like a pathetic girl yknow. 

ive been called "a girl with a boy-faced" by a boy. i feel like WTH ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT YOU KNOW IT HURTS SO DAMN MUCH LIKE YOUR HEART BREAKS TO PIECES AND ALL YOU GONNA DO IS CRY AN OCEAN IF YOU COULD. so yeah school holiday almost arrive and i somehow be so nervous of who will be my classmates next year. i'm so curious of that bcs i hate almost all students who are same batch with me in my school. i hate them bcs most of them are like what ive talk about. hm i hope i can avoid this strong feelings in me. i dont wanna feel this way bcs it makes me feel like im a bad or in film i will be the worse villain hahahaha hm so yeah wish me luck facing all this drama.