-A fangirling that no one knows, ♥ 

Actually idky but sECONDARY SCHOOL changed me A LOT. Firstly, I'm totally sad bcs i feel totally bad. i feel like guys in my school make me realized how ugly i am. i know in primary school, i don't mind this thingy ((but sometimes i care lol)) i care not bcs i want to be loved, i just want to be treated fair. guys in my school definitely close only to famous/glamour girls and when it comes to me they asked "do i know u?" what i did is just smile. smile as u can. yeah, i admit in secondary school, there will be a lot of pretty girls where all u can do is sigh and insecure. sometimes i feel like want to stabbing them from behind bcs of being pretty all the time. but then, they're insecure towards another girl like wth youre pretty like hell no need to insecure you should be thankful. hahahaha i'm a badass -yea i know.

And i somehow menyampah with girls in my school too. like what i said, if boys close to famous girls so same goes to girls. when it comes to boys they will be like "oh so u want to make some noise? ok i dont mind" but when i'm talking to girls like;

me: /raise my hand/

them: wTH YOURE SO ANNOYING GURL, STOP RAISE AND GIVE THE BOYS A CHANCE.

you will feel me when u hv a twitter account -junior girls will seek for senior boys attention and close to them but i somehow dont know when they had argue with senior girls i mean like "y cant u be nice as u be nice to the senior boys?!?!?!?!!?!" so i feel like why so wally hahaha. 

you know when the first time i get to know with them, they are so nice like angle from above. but then, they turn to wild gurls lol hahhahaha i know this is kinda rude but i totally cant take it. i found it unfair, AT ALL. i feel like "youre beautiful girl but its just sad the fact that youre becoming a judgemental. its like waste of your beauty." but when i think wisely, thats why the word "nobody's perfect" invented and i definitely agree!

i hate them for that bcs you know i wouldnt hate them for no reason so ofc i have my own reason. the reason was few months ago;;;;

i went to my school club meeting and i have no friends to accompany me so i close to my classmate. my classmate has a friend. i joined them until the school club ended. when it ended, my classmate asked me to join her went to the canteen and i was like "ok, sure,  no problem" i was totally bored bcs ive been quite all the time since the school club meeting started so i began to talk. talk and talk and talk and talk and my classmate's friend began to scolded me "eh y are u so noise?" and i was like ok i will never talk to u anymore and i will never breathe in front of you ok are u satisfied? but i dont have guts to tell that i have my right to talk so i quite. but i'm so burn like a toaster so i ended up by called my mum to pick me early. so yeah. i feel like a pathetic girl yknow. 

ive been called "a girl with a boy-faced" by a boy. i feel like WTH ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT YOU KNOW IT HURTS SO DAMN MUCH LIKE YOUR HEART BREAKS TO PIECES AND ALL YOU GONNA DO IS CRY AN OCEAN IF YOU COULD. so yeah school holiday almost arrive and i somehow be so nervous of who will be my classmates next year. i'm so curious of that bcs i hate almost all students who are same batch with me in my school. i hate them bcs most of them are like what ive talk about. hm i hope i can avoid this strong feelings in me. i dont wanna feel this way bcs it makes me feel like im a bad or in film i will be the worse villain hahahaha hm so yeah wish me luck facing all this drama. 

     

Haha :D

Assalamualaikum, salam sejahteraaaaaaa. Saya kembali dengan cerita yang agaks merepeks. Ye, saya tahulah saya childish. Dah lama jugak an saya tak post something. Dah berapa hari dah. Ade sesiapa kira. Kfine, takde siapa -,- Tak wajib kira pun. Hari semakin hari semakin banyak dugaan yang datang. "Setiap manusia kena hadapi dugaan dengan hati yang tabah."  Nak tahu tak perkara yang semua olang olang kat sekolah saya benci sangat *kot. Pasal kad. saman. Ramai kot orang yg benci pengawas pasal tuh and I'm also a prefect. Haha, well *K, bajet -,- Tak best sangat sebab rasa berat hati nak saman dia-orang. Kesian. Tapi nak buat macam mana, kau buang sampah merata - rata, cakap 'harsh word' , pukul orang, kad saman yang kejam menanti anda dimana diorang akan berjumpa dengan cikgu disiplin. K, bengang. Saya pernah. saman. orang. Alaaa, baru sorang. Itu pun sebab dia buat kuku guna kertas time cikgu tengah terangkan. Budak darjah enam kelas saya memang cenggitu. Dia bawak geng wooooo.*telan air liur. Pastu, dia mengumpat kata saya ni tak patut lah, baru buat sikit , dah nak saman. Bla bla la la land. 

Pastu, saya cakap lah 'kalau kau tak puas hati, kau jumpe Cikgu Rospa sebab dia yang buat peraturan ni. Jangan nak ngumpat bagai depan aku.' Dia jeling jeling la and whatsoever la. Diorang tak puas hati woooooooo. Dalam beberapa minit kemudian, rasa kesian tapi hmmmmmmmm. Then, tiba tiba Nabil pergi bilik disiplin. Dia balik kelas dia kata saya dengan Syahidah kene pergi bilik disiplin. Cikgu Rospa nak jumpa. *Telan air liurku. Then , tetiba cikgu kata cikgu nak jumpa Nabil sebab cikgu tak panggil kitorang pun ekceli. Kurang haji punya Nabil. Then , dia kata 'Aku gurau je. Yang kauorang percaya asal ?' Rasa nak tumbuk je muka dia. Pastu budak yang saya saman tu jumpe saya dia complain macam macam 'eja nama salah lah, kod kesalahan saya letak tak betul lah' pastu kata 'aku mana ada main  semasa cikgu tengah terangkan . aku main SELEPAS cikgu terangkan.' K, itu pun nak complain , dah kene saman tu pergi je lah jumpa cikgu Rospa kang aku saman kang, tak puas hati pulak. Itulah manusia -,- Pastu, saya rasa malas nak saman orang. Kalau ada budak kate 'weh, Maryam. tadi aku nampak Haiqal pukul Azam. Samanlah.' aku akan cakap 'suruh pengawas lain la.' Haha, aku sememangnya daebak. Dahlah tu. Sekarang nak cerita pasal keputusan UP 1 . Alhamdulillah. Keputusan saya tergolong dalam TOP 10. TOP 3 pun ade. Alhamdulillah and saya akan lebih berusaha lagi, insya'allah :>  

Assalamualaikum, dunia. Yaaa, saya kembali tetapi agaks sedikit stress. I'm soreh kerana bizi dengan kehidupan. Stress. Setiap. Hari. Dengan. Homework. Yang. Berlambak. Awak ape khabar ? Akhirnya tamat jugak UP1. Tekanan bagi menghafal subject semua dah pergi. Shuhh shuhhhh *menghalau* Okay, keputusan nya boleh tahan. Ahhh, jangan harap den bagitahu. Maluu sebenonya. Sebenonya tak ada aidiak untuk buat post. Erghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! Kepala otak nak pecah bile fikir, pandang, cakap, buat, mimpi dan sebagainya pasal homework . Dhe, homework ialah benda yang menakutkan dengan solan yang kadang kadang je susah. Homework juga membuat hidup seseorang berjaya :3 *Itu erti homework bagi pendapat den* Rasa macam nak suruh budak sekolah Harvard tolong buatkan. Tapi, tak boleh nak mengumpat sangat. Nanti tak berkat, siapa susah? 'SAYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA !' 

Saya rasa nak dibandingkan dengan Akademik dan Agama, saya lebih terer Agama. Alhamdulillah setakat nih semuanya mumtaz tapi ada satu paper dapat jaid jiddan. Okay, saya cuti seminggu tapi rasa malas pulak nak buat homework. Itu lah saya. Bile cikgu bagi masa yang singkat tapi homework berlambak, bukan main bengang. Bile cikgu dah bagi masa selama seminggu. Tangguh. Malas. Fedap. Ye, saya tahu saya ni rajin.


Nak gila...boleh ? Yela, tak baik. Kfoineee :3

*Dah lama tak tengok diorang. I miss them a lot.

  Assalamualaikum. Saya Maryam, seorang budak darjah enam yang baru lepas tension. Wiiii, best sangat -,- Okay, siapa cuti dua hari ? Angkat tangannn ! Kalau ye, samo lah kitooo. Homework awak ber-lam-bak takk ? Yeahhh, cuti dua hari tapi homework macam cuti seh-minggu. Cikgu memang baik hati. Dah berapa hari kite sekolah pejam celik pejam celik dah masuk bulan dua. Dah berapa hari kite sekolah pejam celik pejam celik aku dah jadi naib pengerusi. Tak payah nak bangga sangat lah kennn ?


Hari tu ialah hari koko. Koko hari tu kelab. Den kelab PRS. Tetibe ade budak yang suara die macam Ning Baizura, melalak je keje tetiba calon kan den. Joyah Maimon  Maryam selepas itu, den pun bangun dengan kaki yang kebas. Macam orang sakit je den jalan . Budak yang suara macam Ning Baizura tu memang nak kene. Siap die. Lepastu cikgu tulis kat whiteboard. Wohooooooo, tak reti eja nama den, saboooooooooo je la.


Hari Jumaat pulak ade perjumpaan pengawas, alaa, budak budak pink semua berkumpul kat situuu. Macam girly pulak pink pink. Lepastu, cikgu PRS bukan reti nak padam nama den kat whiteboard tuh. Ramai budak budak pengawas kata 'ehhhhhhhh, den jadi naib pengerusi.' Kantoii sudaa. Ade yang tak henti henti panggil nama den. Maluuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu. Sape entah padam sekerat jadi 'Yam Azra'. Fullamak, ade keladi sesat pulakk kat situu. Maluuu den. Macam den dah tua. Siapa lah yang padam sekerat je tu. Memang nak kene. Haha, dah tu kat perjumpaan pengawas cikgu dok marah marah, kate kitorang tak bertugas.  Ade yang tak bertugas dan sewaktu dengonnya. Haaaaaaa, nasib baik den bertugas time tuu. Okay lah, sampai sini sahaja. Adieu ;D